iloveyou (:

Date : Wednesday, September 23
Time : 9:09 AM
Title :

Today is the 2rd day she leave me...
I missing her badly nw ytd nite i din slp i was at downstair wif one of my friends
used 1 hours plus of it my friends say i was amost going to fall down from 20 floor
he say lucky he hold me. but i tell him hold me for fuck let me die la
than he tell me relax
than we go Smoke n drink , i din even know he bought 40plus cans of beers
but cigg i smoked 3 pack maybe i can die faster. beers i was like drink 30 cans plus
my friends say i was very seh keep callin her name..
than he called one of my gan come i dun wan say is who..
she come n slaped me say why i have to become like this
i told her this " you have nv love anyone that deep b4 u will nv know how hurt it is inside my heart"
she say y everytime i have to take relationship so seriously. i tell her this " Becos when i jio someone i only wanted to last forever to that girl n tiongxin to her"
After that they both sent me home...
All i can say was thx to them but if Loving her is wrong i dun wanted to be correct anymore..
They say maybe we still can be friends but i dun even know how i can face her by friends i have alot of thing wanted to told her.
I really dun wanted to be her friends i just wanted to get back like how we are like the past happy n cont the relationship i really miss those days.. i was looking back at those msg we msg but i everytime i read it i cannot conrol my tear to drop.. i really cant face the fact that u are no longer mine.. i really wanted to get u back but can u accept me back again? just reply my msg can u i really have alot thing wanted to talk to u i dun wanted to cry for the whole n gain nth i just wan you back that all... D;
My gastric is very painful nw maybe is cos of smoking n those beers but nvm is okay i really cant stand those heart pain again my heart really hurt. i really feel like i can take a knife n dig out my heart n stop those hurt. this relationship i know is hard to save it le.. so i think the only thing i can do was let me die asap maybe i think this wish can come true. just nw go see the doctor he say cut down smoke n drink cos maybe i going to have another opration.. i told him no nid just let me die. he called my mum n my mum scolded me but nvm i use to it just let me die u nag nw u nag ba other time i scare u have no chance to nag anymore...

Theodora : I know nth i can do nw , u will nv accept my patch anymore.
Can prove me wrong ? n give me the final last chance?
I know i hurt u very badly but i really wanted to have the last chance the final last chance
My love for u is still staying strong but ur i know is still abit for me can give me the final last chance n gain ur love back? I really wanted to help u wear back the necklace i really wanted to call u baby again can let me have this final last chance to have a patch back if serious cant idk wat i can do le all i can do was i have regreted to say those word if i can go back to the past again i wont say those word anymore. i promise i will change i know u like to have freedom i know this few days i give u very less freedom but just give me the final last chance can? pls? D; I really wanted to say iloveyou n imissingyou badly...