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Date : Wednesday, May 27
Time : 9:38 AM
Title :

Never say i love you, when you don't even mean it.

Never talk about feelings when they aren't there.

Never hold my hand if you are going to break my heart.

Never look in to my eyes if all you do is to lie.

Never say hello if you really mean goodbye.

If you really mean forever, don't tell me you'll try.

Never say forever because forever makes me cry.

♥ You will nv be back anymore

Date : Saturday, May 23
Time : 11:28 AM
Title :

hello guy long time no blog cos i really lost hais.. Nw i really dunno wat can i do somehow when the time u leave me somehow i angry but u dunno how much heart pain i am all i can say if u think he is the one than i have nth to say if u are happy i will happy for u somehow i know i wont get u back anymore but i still waiting for u but i have nv hope of anything. if my saddness can exchange ur happyness i will do that for u somehow i am a fool but i have nv regret i have promised you that i will always stay single for you that wat i doing nw. i really dunno wat have happen to me n somehow i really wanted to ask god y u wanted to born me in this world n let me get all this hurt n saddness isit like this u feel more happy? hais.. anyway for all those spammer i can just say i wont care u all spam somehow u all wan act pai kia in here u can i wont care wan kio me just come i will always wait for u all somehow u all better sent me to heaven on that day if nt the next day i will bring u all to hell that all i can say u all can try. I can just say i just a fool n useless person n i very bei gan so just come

Date : Monday, May 18
Time : 11:17 PM
Title :

Today i know all about it somehow ya is my fault but i really dunno y i have no match wif a butch i really fuck up somehow u really hurting me alot i know i hurt u too but i just wanted to say sry but is too late. nw everything is over but i still loving u just nw on the msn i seriously cried u dun even know. seen we aready become like this i have nth to say i promise i wont disturb u but i will always be wif u somehow i really regret but wat i regret nw u wont be back i can just say something i will always be staying single for you , u know anot is nt a matter nw cos u wont be back n i dun wanted to be ur friends n u know oso wat i have done i really regret but y there is no more turning back hais.. forget it somehow i crying nw nvm is fine wif her from the day she told me dun chup i doing for her but nw sry i will chup back even if that butch wan find me ta ji just come she bei song lai only ya i bei gan i know u can just try me u just making me fuck up but i really regret of wat i doing nvm somehow even if we saw each other nw i think i will just treat we dun know each other. tc just nw if u told me u like other guy i have nth to say but u telling me u like a butch i really fuck up nvm waiting anot is my choice ya it hurt ur feelin wont be back but wat can i do i can only just wait , wait for a pointless n a useless hope i have nv thought of i n u can be together i just wanted to be at ur side i missing u everyday i know i shouldt ask for hug but u dunno how much i miss u that y i ask for hug n i really wanted to hug u tie but nw is just a dream to me somehow i can only dream u inside no more chance anymore i really dunno wat i can do nw i seriously lost i really feel like just jump down nw from the window.. i really dun feel like living anymore..

Date : Sunday, May 17
Time : 1:16 PM
Title :

Today wake up i msg n ask for meet but somehow she told me this mark her words that she will reject she say maybe idk y she say this my heart really break nw i know she leaving me soon tears dropping nw i dun even care who beside me i cant even control the tears u wont know how sad n heart pain nw i really stress somehow that day will only keep inside my mind 8 may is the day that will always keep inside my heart becos it wont happen anymore that will only be memory nw i really lost somehow wat i have done for you , u dun even know. u will only know how stress u are but have u know u gt ur stress i gt mine too u dun even know nvm i will always stay single for you cos i know i wont have u but other can they are better than me. You really hurt me alot but i have nv regret it from the start loving u is wat i wan but when i know u have feelin for me oso i was really very very happy but somehow nw i think is was just a past aready it wont have it back. tc girl i will always be there for u but somehow i cant be infornt of u i can only sercetly looking u from far somehow that is wat i can do only. No more love for me nw cos my heart will always be wif her I will be staying single for her only tc guy 14 more day idk wat will happen tc guy...

Date : Saturday, May 16
Time : 9:57 AM
Title :

Hais.. ytd i cant slp i was lying on sofa at 11plus to 4 am hais... idk i can lying down n think so long hais.. ytd nite tear keep on dropping i cant control it i have think alot ytd somehow i think alot idk i should or not give up n suffer all those hurt myself i really dun wanted to see her stress up i just wanted her to be happy hais.. i know nwaday she is keeping a distance away from me that was wat i think n somehow i know all those happy moment wont be back anymore but y we cant meet up more? even ur sister u can spent more than 1 hour one week but y cant i? D; this week we just meet up less than one hours why? why we become like this hais.. somehow idk y u are the one that i can cried everyday hais.. i really dun wanted to see u stress up but somehow idk wat should i do hais.. today i really wanted to meet u up n i promise i wont ask for anything but y isit so hard i seriously dunno wat i can do. but i seriously wanted to know do u still love me ? n is ur feelin is still wif me? hais.. i know wat u will say idk... hais.. even today i just wanted to meet up wif you but i know i wont one so i just hope can meet up but by ur idk i know we cant meet up. that y i say i wont disturb u but u dunno how i feel when i cant meet up wif you hais... idk am i giving u too much freedom? i really dunno y even friends can meet up more than 1 hour but y we cant? even one day of meeting oso cant u promise u will meet up 2 to 3 day per week but nw hais.. this week i pon alot of sku i just wanted to meet her up n spent more time wif her but end up pon 4 day of sku n this week we only meet up total of nt more than 1 hours hais.. y we become like this i really just wanted to back like the past i know nw it wont happen anymore all i can say is from the day i asked you for stead when u say u will accept i was very hyper n happy but when u was going up to home u say u nided to wait for ur kor to out my mind was like wat if ur feelin faded away n wat if we drift n u told me this mark ur word u say u will accept mean u will but wat about nw? i really dunno nw u told me dun put too much hope n too much in it i seriously lost n idk wat to do tear are dropping everyday. somehow do u know how much i love you D: hais.. i really dun wanted to lose you but if giving up can make u less stress i will try to do it hais.. i really dun wanted to lose you if u are gone i seriously dunno wat to do hais.. should i mia to give u more freedom i really dunno somehow all those word u told me is keeping deeply inside my heart but will it happen? hais.. somehow we are from stranger to friends to stead? to nw the gan or friends.. why? why we become like this i really just wanted to be ur why cant i hais.. i think i shall end here tear dropping D;

I just back home from era slacked at there smoking amost every min cos i waiting for her msg but somehow i try to think her fone no money but when i call the phone still can call but why? why u nv reply me? D; are u still angry wif me? or are you avoiding me? D; i really dun wan us to end up like that D: pls i really cant affort to lose you D; if somehow you really leave me i think no point of living in this world nw i really nid to slash nw i no mood to post nw if you really wanted to avoid me i have nth i can do nw if really that case i think i have to mia for the time being sry if my mia is the best for you i doing for the sake for you i will still wait for you but somehow i know ur feelin will be fade but being wif u anot is nt a matter nw i just wanted you to be happy sry i will oso be there for you i doing it is nt becos i dun love you is becos i loving you too much i giving u all the freedom nw n i dun wanted to see u crying n sad again tc my love for you will be keep on growing but nt fadeing tc i really love you.

Date : Friday, May 15
Time : 6:21 PM
Title :

Hais.. today i try my best to be smile but i know that a fake smile i trying my really best but i still cant do it... this few day i pon alot sku cos i waiting for today to meet her i totally no mood to go sku i really just nid her but somehow today i thought i can spent the day wif her but end up we meet at bugis but somehow my mood change i really sry i really dun wanted to end up like that i sry.. okay ba i wont ask for anything if u really dun wan i oso wont ask for it le D: i really just wanted to back like the past i really cant leave without you ya somehow today i was du lan but hais.. i try my real best but i still cant i really just wanted to back to the past that we are happly together i trying my best to back like the past but it seen like we really cant hais.. the day i asked you for stead u say u will accept but nided to wait for ur kor to out i can understand that y i waiting day by day ya i scare of waiting le cos of the past but i trying my best nw hais.. wat can i do i really cant leave without you if u really leave me i think just a stab into my heart it will be better for me cos i think die is the best way to end all this hais.. i really dun wanted to end up like this hais.. today when u say u gtg i really wanted to ask weather can i follow u anot but somehow i think i shall give u freedom but idk y we end up like this hais.. when she gone i sitting on bugis mrt staircase n tear dropping there alot people looking but somehow i dun give a dam on them.. hais.. on that time i seriously feelin alone i really wish that i can be wif u i know wat i ask i think is too much hais.. but y the past we can but nw we end up like this? hais.. i really feelin lost hais.. i think i shall Mia for the time being 32 day more n i still waiting for you i really just wanted to be wif you from the day i asked for stead i aready swear my heart will always tiongxim to you but nw is just u wanted to give me the chance anot hais.. y everytime i see so many couple can be happy together y cant i like them isit this really my life n i should face the fact? hais.. somehow my brother friends at my home nw but my tears still droping hais.. idk wat to do hais.. i think i shall end here n later maybe i will edit some ba hais.. i have no mood nw tmr i just wanted to see her n i promise i wont ask for anything le i just wan you by my side wif me that all.. 8 may is the day that i cant have it back again D:

Hais.. nw is 9.45pm i still missing her badly i really wanted to hug her tie nw i really dun wanted her to leave me D; i really cant affort to lose her D; if she gone i really dunno wat i can do hais.. idk y everytime blog my tear will drop D; tmr i really wish to meet she but somehow idk should i ask anot cos i really wanted to give her freedom D; hais.. but somehow i know if i nv ask we will have long time cant meet D; hais.. wat should i do hais.. somehow the day i ask for stead i aready swear that i will love her more than anyone do but y are we keep on like this i really stress up n fuck up i really hate myself D; i really wanted to back like wat we are like the past i really miss it if just 1 more chance of it i will still wanted to back to the past like how we are hais.. somehow i know is hard or wont come true hais.. nw i really scare that she will leave me i trying my best to give her everything but somehow i really wish we can be together hais.. when the day friday i ask wat u going to say about i n u , u told me to tell other time we stead but somehow y nw it change to friends n gan? n y wanted to take down that pm? isit ur feelin for me is gone? i really dunno hais.. i really heart break when i hear n saw all those somehow we are drifting that y i wanted to meet u up more n try to hold on ur feelin but hais.. idk wat to say D; tearing dropping... i really cant affort to lose you D; hais.. i have to end here i go wash up hais.. D;

Date : Thursday, May 14
Time : 12:12 PM
Title :

Hi guy today pon sku again hais.. i seriously have no mood to study hais.. i have nv missing a girl that much somehow i know we are still nt stead n i cant control her wat to do but i just wanted her feelin to stay strong wif me D: i know this few day she very stress but nth we can do oso i think all this time is a test for both of us n i promise how long it take i will wait for you somehow i cant control my emotions even i sad i will still have a fake smile infront of you cos i dun wanted to see u sad... i promise i wont do anything on that day hais.. but somehow i really wish we can just like friday that time but i know we cant nw.. hais.. i will try to make u smile n happy like that friday i wish that it will happen hais.. this few day pon alot day hais.. somehow i think i wanted to drop sku cos i really dun have the mood to study le hais.. just nw gt a unknown call i thought is from sku cos i alot day nv go le but end up is called from hsa -.- hais.. i dun even care oso sian.. i think i have nth much to say n do today i will be rot at home ba n she slping nw -.-zzz LoL hmm nvm ba i promise to give her freedom n tmr i can meet her somehow i was quite happy ba idk hais.. somehow i back to the old me emo n dao again.. ok ba i shall end here cos i have nth to do oso hais.. nite time i will edit ba tc guy n tc girl i will always be there for you (':

Date : Wednesday, May 13
Time : 9:02 PM
Title :

Hais.. seriously i think last friday is the happy day of my life but somehow i think was just a dream on it hais.. y everytime i posting the blog my tear sure going to drop hais.. somehow i really which that i can go back to the day on friday n the time can stop going so i can have all the time wif you hais.. i know it wont i was just daydreaming from the start we are just stranger to friend to gan to nw de wat? i really dunno seriously i dun mind waiting even 1 year or 2 year is okay wif me but i really nid ur love for me to stay strong hais.. i really dun wanted to lose you ); i just have one wish nw is just being wif her forever this is wat i wan n nv shall nt be change. This few day i pon sku becos i just wanted to see her even if is just 1 sec of it seriously missing her alot but nth i can do oso i shall really let her to have wat she wan. I really hope she can solve all those things faster but i know it wont be that easy even for just this few week i know somehow some day her feelin for me will be fade or aready fade i really dunno but somehow if really fade i wont give up. i will still be waiting for you but somehow idk i really dunno for me isit loving someone i like is that hard. i have wait for someone b4 but end up i have 3 time of broken promise will thing back like that same time? pls i really hope u can prove me wrong hais.. tear really still cant stop dropping i think i shall end here i wash up all the tear tc guy seriously no mood maybe i will be mia idk i really lost hais..

Today pon sku again everyday hope she will ask me out but hais.. nvm is okay somehow i feelin sad but nth i can do oso.. so today pon sku wake up mum say dad saw the hsa letter but lucky dad nt at home but nite time sure tio gan but nvm dun even care oso nw i only care for her hais.. this few day pon i really hope she will ask me for meet but i wrong hais.. nvm i dun wan her stress up oso but i going to treasure friday cos i can meet her but idk y my mood still swing hais.. i think we cant meet up like last time i think friday i will be very dao n emo le hais.. idk y hais.. i really cant cheer up i really wish time can stop at friday that time i really very happy at that moment. idk will be back to that moment again or u willl fade away hais.. i really cant affort to lose you ); hais.. today use comp , use until keep anyhow thing hais.. my mood keep on cant be happy after that cab to boon keng buy cigg than walk to whampoa i thought she was there so i just wanted to see her from far but too bad that she left early hais.. so when to find xiaosoul n go slack talk alot smoke alot after that boring than back home hais.. chatting wif her awhile than dad back home going to tio kan later hais.. cos of hsa sian.. i really cant live without if u are gone i think there nth really i can do as well just end my life hais.. Good Nite i know u slping nw... just like i say i will wait just like my blog song hais.. tc i really wanted that we can just like the past D:

Date : Tuesday, May 12
Time : 10:13 PM
Title :

Today go sku very early end wanted to find her but she gt interview n going wif her friends somehow i shall give her freedom but seriously missing her but nth i can do hais.. today whole day rot at home no mood today i really very scare that she will leave me hais... currently this few day i like to think alot shall i mia for the time being to give her more freedom hais... idk i really wanted to trust u n everything u say but all those thing i hear i really dunno wat to do but my love for you will nv change. i really wanted to give u freedom but the more freedom i give the more scare i am. hais.. everyday hope that u will ask me out but somehow i think u out wif ur friends is more happy n hyper than going out wif me. hais.. i really think alot today seriously isit just a dream that the day u tell me all those or i still in the dream n havent wake up hais... missing you badly ytd just a look at you but nt even 1 min is enuff for me but nw hais.. idk when i still can saw u i missing you badly somehow i wish i can quit sku n everyday see u from far hais.. i really dunno wat postion am i in ur heart nw i really dunno i really dun wanted to lose you hais.. somehow looking forward to meet you tmr but watever i ask for meet its seen like i really disturb you. Hais.. tmr no mood to go sku actually is plan to pon n meet her but hais.. i can feel that she dun wan so i think i shall nt ask to meet anymore if we really going to drift i have nth to say just let fate to decide it ba if this really my life i will face the fact of it. No mood to blog anymore sry...